Time Flies

Its hard to believe that I have played blog-hookie for more than a month! I guess the chemo really has affected me more than I realized. I knew I just didn't feel as up to many things as usual but, over all, the effects have been mild - for chemo. The proof lies here, however, and my sadly neglected blog is that proof.

This morning I head off for the third of four chemotherapy treatments, so I am feeling pretty perky right now but will likely not be so lively a little later on today. I will also probably spend most of the next two days sleeping off the initial effects however the side effects are not anything like the horror stories I have heard from so many people and I feel very fortunate to be having such an easy time of it in comparison to so many others who suffer greatly while trying to eradicate their cancers. I am also bald, basically, which has been oddly freeing in its way, but also oddly uncomfortable and, as with the breasts, I want my hair back ASAP, too.

It is a bright, crisp morning here in New England and the sun is shining gloriously from a beautiful, blue sky. There is the sound of a small plane in the distance, the kitty fountain is playing its tune, but there are no sounds from the birds right now and I assume they are off in the woods somewhere getting their breakfasts. The house is quiet. The cats have found warm spots and hidden themselves as this is the first really chilly morning we have had for quite awhile and it feels good. A small dog barks in the distance and I know I have to be off getting ready for the days scheduled events. Perhaps I will be able to get a few phone calls taken care of and some paperwork accomplished while I have my chemo today, although the time does not seem to pass that slowly despite the lengthy spans needed in order to deliver the various drugs required prior to the chemo as well as the toxins themselves. The nurses are kind and at least I am able to eat, which a lot of other patients cannot manage, so I will have lunch to look forward to as well. For a treatment for an unpleasant medical reality things do not go so badly for the most part and I feel very fortunate.

Blessings on all who wander here. May your lives be more fortunate, happier, healthier, wealthier, and in every way better than what I have right now. If these things are so, I know the world is a happier and more peaceful place than we realize, as my life is blessed despite its negative aspects.

Love,
Izzlebug